I choose to protect innocence.
When I was just a little girl, my innocence was taken by a child down the street whose innocence was also taken and normalized it by taking mine.
I soon found out that her abuser also was a victim of her innocence being taken.
It was on that day that I would never view bunk beds the same way, ice cream would never look the same, certain tv shows, cartoons.
There were also things of darkness and evil that were being shown to me while this happened as my eye lids were held open and I was being forced to watch.
My vision of purity and seeing through the eyes of a child would never be the same.
So many beautiful colorful things were tainted. My world lost it’s color and it’s wonder.
Everything became darkness.
I lived my entire life knowing things I was never supposed to know.
I lived my entire life knowing too much.
My mind became defiled.
I never got to just be innocent.
Recently, God restored my innocence when I was delivered.
He healed my heart and delivered me from trauma, memories and flash backs, fear, unforgiveess, bitterness, resentment, darkness that had entered my eyes-so much.
I forgave my abuser and even helped her forgive hers.
Now my Father is painting a beautiful master piece of color and childlike wonder in my life.
I spent my entire life knowing too much.
This is why rabbit holes are dangerous to me and my father knows that very well.
I already lived a life of knowing too much.
I already lived a life of never knowing purity and goodness.
Why would He want me to go back to that place when He is gifting me with childlike joy and laughter, when He is teaching me to live in His kingdom?
Why would He take that from me?
He wouldn’t.
But you know who would?
One who kills, steals and destroys.
Do I know about evil?
Sure.
Do I know his tactics?
Absolutely.
I cast out demons daily.
I also see them, I have discernment of spirits.
I am very aware of the devil and his schemes.
But I do not live my life in the darkness anymore.
I choose joy.
I choose light.
I choose to be childlike.
This is the precious gift my Father gave me recently in my life that I will never take for granted.
You can choose to not be ignorant of the devils schemes and still not allow them to consume you and rob you of your childlike faith and joy.
The only way you’ll be able to enjoy the things of the Kingdom of God is to become like a little child.
We cannot become like a child when we live in a place of darkness.
Take it from me, do not let the knowledge of evil and what the devil is doing consume you.
It’s a never ending rabbit hole.
There are demonic roots everywhere you look.
You will find it.
It’s everywhere.
But you child of God were called to look up in perilous times and when evil is prevailing.
To walk in Joy, Peace and Righteousness.
This is the very definition of the Kingdom of God.
To the pure, all things are pure, but to the defiled and unbelieving, nothing is pure; but both their minds and their consciences are defiled. Titus 1:15-16 ESV
“Assuredly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will by no means enter it.”” Mark 10:15 NKJV
